hey hey!wassupz?!haha...ceilinG..dUh!well..aniway...tis past few days i cant go to sleep.i duno y.kept on tossin n turnin thruout da whole nite.den alwis wakes up at 3 in da morn.den cant sleep again.kept on glancing at ma hp screen.willing it in ma head to beep signallin a msg.haiz.none.zilch.kosong.haiz.onli today did i fully understand y ma sleepin pattern has gone haywire.i m reali in love wif hafiz.it's not an infatuation.neither izzit juz a fling.i truli love him.oMg.is dis whud true love reali is?mandi tak basah.makan tak kenyang.tido tak lene..hahaz..wel..dats whud i'f bin experiencing tis past few weeks since hafiz last sms.haiz.i cant believe i m finali truli experiencin TRUE LOVE.hahaz..wel..i hope we can both top up our cards soon...coz i duno how long i can survive wifout hearin his voice.his laughter.n gettin his smses.it's loike al these has become part of ma usual routine in life.yar u muz b thinkin.hello?!whud hapen to telephones?sowie mine's brokedwn.n so he cant cal mi.ok den...ur next qn muz b..hello?mit each other face to face.sowie ditto dat.I m WAy too bz to meet him.haiz..i m amazed at how strong our relationship is.we didnt drift apart even doe we r not in close contact.haiz.our messenger boi is his bro.aww..how sweet..hahaz..wel..nuff said of him i guess...[as much as i dun wana stop yakkin abt him..i noe tis muz haf bore u ppl..hahaz...da fairytale of ma life..woohoo..hahz]
wel today gaf ms foo da letter dat i wana drop amax.haiz.wtf man..i reali wana drop amax coz i nv haf da interest in math or science.lotsa ppl sae i ma language gerl.yep dats mi huh?but now even ma languages sucked oweadi.d0m asked mi if i'm takin design skool in da future.i told him nah.i wana take mass comm.prefer usin ma big mouth den ma small hands.hahaz..it's true..gerl's honour.hahaz..wel i dun haf to take amax mid yr papaer..woohoo...freedom man..hahaz..but ms foo dun allow mi to sit outside class..hahaz..wtf man..wel..actuali i ma kinda angry at sum of ma "fwens"...yesh "fwens" in inverted commas.
they r...[drum rolls]

1] Nurul Jannah
2]Sakinah Chuman
3]Tuti Nurdiani
4]DAMIEN!!!!

actuali thr's a loooong list...hahaz...but hey i'll deal wif em 1st..

ok...i noe u ppl mite tink...oMg here she go again...complainin..
complainin..complainin..i noe..i noe..i dun blame ya'al..wel actuali..i ma not reali nagry wif em...more loike disappointed lar..cept fer nominee number 4.yesh u.dun look at others.hahaz.in a short while i'll gif ya da summmary..


da reasons y i ma disappointed/angry wif em'

|jaNnaH|

she's ungrateful.a liar.backstabber.hypocrite.mani more.to tink dat i wen to a gr8 trouble n sacrifice last yr fer her..i got her out of BETA system.even doe she has lied to mi abt da "takin" of ma handphone.wtf man.but i continue trustin her much to da dislikin of ma other fwens|weixin.meiqin.helmi.suhairie.waheng.u guys noe hu u r|evendoe i found out n thr's a prove dat da hp was mine..i stil didnt report da takin of da phone to da authorities..she was cryin askin mi to get mr tay to b lenient in punishin her.ma heart breaks n i pity her hafin to go thru tis so...i n mq tok wif mr tay.he agreed to get her out of BETA system.since it's her 1st offence.wel den tis yr she did again.omg.doesnt she ever learn?i duno.al dos promises of u changin fer da beta.whud happen to em?so it was juz al tok izzit?wel tis yr..she begged mi to help her print some minor things n draw some of her DNT things..i relented evendoe i was bz.i mean whud r fwen 4?rite?WRONG!she moved a step further.she eventuali asked mi to help her do her malay compo.wtfm?i was loike WHUD?!u nuts.scuse mi u r takin ur os next yr fer urself.i ma not gona take it fer u.den she ignored mi wenever i haf probs or nd a cryin shoulder.or wenever i wana borrow ears to pour ma heart out abt hafiz.u noe whud she sae?she said it's outdated oreadi.u nwana noe sumtink?a true love is nv outdated.period.get dat inside ur head.whud abt da fact dat I LISTENED TO UR YAKKINGS OF UR CRUSHES?!FROM SUHAIRIE TO AIZAT TO SIRAJ TO IZZAT TO ***J*M*N N NOW HARVEY?!
wel den wenever tuti has a prob..she gaf her "advice"..2t dun commit suicide lar..
but wen i haf a prob..ooh whr's da switch to off it[ma ears]?!wtfm!!m i spose to jump dwn from a buildin n den onli u will realize dat ma probs are much bigger den urs n 2t's n sakinah's combine?whud wen dey found ma bodi at a void deck den u sey...oh no aini..i ma so sowie..i shud haf bin thr fer u...u were a gr8 fren...i ma so sowie..wel if dat did hapen[which is nv]..ur apologies wun bring mi bac to life.get it?!nuff said..she even tried to make stories to break up arts[aini.r**.tuti.sakinah.]tellin stories dat i tok bad abt him lar...her lar...wtfm..ok2 nuff said..

|sakinah|

wel..wel..helo if u r reading tis..frankli dat was juz to start off nicely so as not to oreadi strain da relationship btw us..tis gerl..so much to sae..so lil werds to use..haiz..actuali i dun haf anitink against her..juz da fact dat she loike to copi ppl's style.dats al.n oh yeah..she loikes to tok big.she tinks dat wen she befriend popular ppl,she auto become popular..arhem..wen r u gona realise dat no befriendin popular fwens or hafin da status "attached" is gona make ya goddamn popular..yar..get dat in ur head..n wen u r hidin behind dat comp of urs...waah u wana act big in front of mi...dare to threaten mi lar...blah blah blah...al dat to mi?BULLSHIT!!get a grip gerl..u tink u threatenin mi is gona scare mi..?ooh i ma scared..dream on ok..n whuds tis u say of mi bein sensitive n insensitive?!huh?make up ur mind lar..look ok...get tis inside ur head..I DUN CARE WHUD U SAY..IT DOESNT BOTHER MI..as mi bein insensitive to ur feelins?nuff said lar ar..u wana noe whud ppl sae abt u behind ur bac..other ppl not da usual "us"..dey tink u step tomboy lar..act ***b*...n mani more...nuff said k..my motive of writin al tis dwn is not to kutuk u dwn sampai habis..ma actual motive is to make U realise juz how stupid u r..copyin other ppl's style..blah blah blah..tink abt it...whud r u gona get by copying ppl's style?!huh?1 tel mi..u alwis bang bks on da table wen we haf disagreements over small matters..gif dat face..[hus bein sensitive here?!]..u dun tink wen u do sumtink do u?u onli wana attract ppl's attention..oh dun deny it...i haf enuf of dat..n wen ms foo tok to mi dat day of mi wantin to drop amax..u smiled hapili..scuse mi?i do not drop amax coz i ma stupid...no hope lar..blah3..but it's coz of da fact dat i nv haf interest in math and science.get it?!u tink u r beta den al of us dun u?more superior lar..yadayada...u wana noe sumtink?dats al crap..cant u loike tink b4 u act...cant we al b more matured?huh?i dun get it u noe..honezli i ma quite jealous to c how strong other ppl's friendship r..dey r truli hapi if one of em achieves sumtink..no jealousies..loyalty...honesty..openness..u noe al dos qualities..but our friendship has been goin dwn da drain.y?mainly coz of jealousies.sum more wen u noe sumtink,u dun wan share wif da rez of us..u keep it to urself ie in studies..but wen we noe abt our studies..u expect us to share it wif u..dat is soo..selfish of u..wel enuff said here..if u r readin tis..plz dun b insulted..i ma tellin da truth..

|tuTi|


hey ya gerl..if u read tis..juz keep on readin k..wel..tuti is a gd fwen of mine..she's kinda loike ma soul sis..to mi..but recentli..dats not da case..i noe dat she has probs..but hey..i listened to em n in some cases advise ya..but u?did u?wenever i haf a prob it's loike ur bodi is thr but ur mind is not..berbuih-buih mulot aku ckp..in da end u sae...hah?!whud?!do u noe dat u sayin dos werds is loike hurtin ma feelins?haiz..i noe u haf probs dats y we haf al dos bondin moments walkin hru da calm park..i speciali set dat tym fer us bz ppl 2 bond..seems loike it's defeated its purpose..haiz..thk u fer listenin to mi dos tyms..appreci8 it..aniway..i juz wana comment abt u wana chg ya attitude to b a bad gerl..to tel ya da truth i ma not so psyched wen u sae u wana b a bad gerl..coz i'f been thru dat in sec1..been thr..done dat..k?juz trust mi..i noe u will b thinkin it's ma life..not urs..but hey..trust mi..it's not werth it..i dun wana ur mother to think dat i ma influencin u to do lotsa bad things k..i get tis vibe dat she is sorta anti mi..but hey dats ok..tis is a free country..everi1 has everi rights to tink whud dey wana tink..aniway nuff said here..if u r readin tis..plz dun b insulted..i ma tellin da truth..

n da last nominee..

|daMien|

haha...ur case rite..actuali i juz dun loike u callin hafiz sux[hey hey..sensitive issue]..dats al..haha..lamez huh?!cheerios..

ok peeps..omg..it's gona b 5 soon i haf ta mit hafiz naw...gtg..bye adios..

aLyssA kicked at 4/24/2004 03:41:00 PM

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